What a crazy day. So I get to work, and my manager comes up to me first thing, without even saying hi or anything and says, "we need to open up your availability to say that you are available on Sundays." Now I know what he meant. But it felt so harsh and I got really emotional all of the sudden. He assured me that they would only be opening it up for the system, and that they would still not schedule me Sunday mornings, but I freaked out. Every job I have ever had has told me that they have to have me available Sundays, but they would work with me because of church, and they have screwed me over. My supervisor saw that I was upset and we went outside to talk about it. She gave me her word that she would not mess with my sunday mornings, and she understood why I was worried. I told her that I don't have a problem trusting people, and that is why I am worried. I usually get walked over. But I can see her heart through her eyes, and I know that she would not do that to me. She is a very genuine person and I love working for her. If she were to leave I would be very upset. She told me to write a letter about this. To say that I would open my availability up for Sundays, but I would not be available in the mornings, and say why those mornings are important. She said she would sign it, and get the department manager and the store manager to sign it, and put it in my permanent file. That way there would be no room for trouble. She is just great.

They had me over in the computer department today, ringing up computer packages, and I had fun. It made me want to buy all this stuff though. I can't wait until we can afford a desktop.

After work I went to dinner with Ryan's family. It was fun. After that Ryan and I went to Wal-Mart to get the 4th season of Friends, but they were out!! I was so sad because we have seasons 1-3 and I have been wanting to see what happened after the 3rd one. So we skipped and went to the 5th season. Oh well, they are still great shows! I had a great time just hanging out with Ryan tonight. We got to talk, which we don't usually get to do because we are so busy with work and church all the time. We realized how really blessed we really are. I mean, we are 20 and newlyweds, out on our own for the first time, and we aren't strapped (yet). We have all the money we need to take care of the things we need, and a little more for some of the things we want. We got a great deal on our wonderful apartment, we both have great new jobs and cars that run, all of our furniture and most of our entertainment were given to us. God has just really placed his hand over our undeserving lives. He loves us, He really loves us!

It really makes me realize how there is nothing we could ever even be capable of doing to repay Him for all that He has given us. It makes me so mad at all of those people who think that God accepts it when they just go around 'doing good deeds.' He made a way for us! The ultimate sacrifice that could never be repayed, and all He asks of us is to believe and accept and love him!! I mean, come on, how easy is that?!?! We don't deserve for it to be that easy, and still we cannot even seem to do that. It just makes me sad.

Anyways, hopefully I will be hanging out with Christina tomorrow, though I have not even talked to her today. I can't wait.

I'm tired of writing now, though.

Oh yea, did I mention, I got my first letter from Josue Steven. He's the little boy from Peru that Ryan and I sponsor through Compassion. He is only four, so he didn't write it himself, but he told the director what he wanted to tell me and wow, it was just so cool to actually hear from him! I wrote him a letter back the next day, and sent him and old picture of Ryan and I. I can't wait to get more pictures of him. I just love that boy to death.

There are a lot of people on my heart tonight, and I just want you all to know how much I love you.

Goodnight.